Over six years ago I spoke the two words that broke my mom into a million pieces.
"Yes ma'am"
You're all probably confused right now.
So, Let me explain.
I never had any symptoms.
No pain. No sickness. Nothing.
After a basketball game. A playoff game. Tyler played great by the way. I just felt it.. we needed to go take a test. I didn't really know why. I just kind of knew.
We went to Sonic.
Gross.
The test was in fact, Positive.
I cried. Tyler laughed.
He said, and I quote. "This will be the time of our lives"
HAHAHAHAHAHA. HE'S AN IDIOT.
I was silent the whole ride home thinking of my little sisters, and my brother. What would they think? My mom? Oh Lord. My dad? Tyler is dead meat.
Tyler dropped me off. My mom was on the porch. I walked up, sat down. Started small talk about the awesome ball game we just had, she took one look at me..
" you're pregnant, aren't you? "
" yes ma'am "
A mother always knows..
We didn't tell my dad for another 4 or 5 weeks. Ha, funny story is I was already about 5 months when we found out I was pregnant.
Looking back, I cannot believe someone let me leave the hospital with a human being when I was that young. I cannot believe someone trusted Tyler and I with a life?! With a HUMAN CHILD?! someone to raise, to teach, to guide, and nuture. I cannot believe that it has been six years since I shook up the life of my family and friends.
I look around all the time at the youth in my community and it breaks my heart the see what's going on.. to hear, to witness etc all of the hurt, the sin, the pain.
Girls. I have been you. I have been all of you. I have been the one that falls in love with the first blue eyed quarterback that grins at you and I have been the rebel that stays out to late and lies to 3 or 4 guys to be with them all.
JUST STOP?!
I wish I had spent more time finding myself in God and who He wanted me to be and be with than who and what I wanted. It would have saved me alot of pain.
