Dear Agony..

I'm sick. I'm sick of you.

-- of the heavy feeling crawling through my veins every minute of every hour of every day causing me to want to hurl my lunch... if I even ate anything.

You won't let me eat.

You won't let me read.

You won't let me focus.

You've got my nerves so worked that I'm shaking, my heart is racing...

You've become part of my life: My closest friend. Just shut up.

It's not fair what you're telling me. It's not fair what you're invading my head with.

Just, let go of me!
Let me shine..

I know how you work.
You've come only to steal from me, kill me, destroy me...

There is a place for you.
and it's not here with me..

I've been to Hell and back, I've not come this far and fought this hard, to let you take me down with you.

my God is bigger than you.
Bigger than me.

Bigger Than This.

So. Let go of me.

You will soon be a small, small, part of my story and how I've OVERCOME every single thing Satan puts in my way because my God is SO MUCH BIGGER.

Get outta here with that crap.

With All That I Am,
Kathryn ♡ ♡

Stereotypes. I get it. Kinda.

We've all profiled someone based on how they dress, talk, walk... 

Sometimes, it's good to do that. I get it. We need to be aware of our surroundings for our safety.

What I don't get is putting someone in a specific category based on their hair cut, their tattoos, their braces, their sense of style.

Why do we as a society accept the Jock and the Cheerleader but turn our heads to the hippie or the biker?

Given the stereotypical reputation of jocks and cheerleaders, (saying this knowing my husband and I were these things) we see that they party, have sex, smoke pot, make bad grades...

AS WELL AS THE STEREOTYPE FOR BIKERS, TATTOO ARTISTS, REDNECKS, FRAT BOYS.

So why is one group of SINNERS accepted and the others are not?..

As a church we turn a blind eye to people because they are different. We think they are lost, or broken, or full of hate and dark nasty sins, when maybe they just like that style.

Maybe they are a better Christian than you.

We wouldn't know because they aren't wearing Chacos and comfort colors. So we don't talk to them.

Instead. We judge them.

We all fight the same demons. Some have been exposed. Some people get caught. Some hide it away.

We are all sinners.

John 3 17.
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

And if the whole point in the Gospel is to be Christ like and spend the word of Salvation.... why are we condemning instead of accepting?

With All That I Am,

Kathryn.

You're addicted to what?

When someone is ADDICTED to something they have withdrawals from not using it.

Examples: caffeine, opiates, meth, nicotine, etc etc.

These people need medication from long term use and then coming to a halt of these things.

These people need more than medication, but withdrawals are a beast that medication helps with. They also need Jesus.

Let me get to my point.

You don't have a shopping addiction. That's called GREED.

You don't have a sex addiction. That's called LUST.

You don't have a baked potato addiction. That's called GLUTTONY.

no one needs flipping medicine because they can't quite watching PORN or keep their PANTS PULLED UP. That's an issue with your HEART.

Tiger Woods cheats on his wife and we give him a pass because he has a "SEX ADDICTION".

UHHHH. NO.

You can't retire because you have a shopping addiction, so we turn our heads and keep unloading Target bags from the back of your car.

UHHHH. NO.

We have literally watered down the gospel SO much that we will allow people to do whatever they want and because they say they are "sick" when the consequences hit home we comfort them and give them a pass for their SIN.

you have to walk that crap out.

So do it and quit making up excuses.

You don't have to do it alone.
But, you have to quit rolling around in it.

Satan doesn't get us all at once.
He starts at you one step at a time.

One bad thought, then one bad website, then one bad phone call, then one hook up.

One credit card, then one bad check, then one house full of crap, and a heart filled with nothing.

He knows what you genuinely struggle with and he will use it against you. Don't let him. Bc then he will tell you that you're sick. And leave you there alone and all you have is the world and it's consequences.

Jesus Christ is THE only answer.

Are you really a Christian?

Here recently I've been really convicted about the way we (as a church, as believers) live our life.

Based on Facebook posts and T shirts that I see people wear, pretty much everyone within a 50 mile radius of me in all directions is Christian.

But, let's get real.

As a Christian we are disciples of Christ. Our main goal is to preach Jesus and His ministry. When Jesus called us to be His disciples he said "Repent. Sin NO. MORE."

He said pick up your cross and follow Him.
Not the world. Not your Pastor. Not your grandmother. Him. Jesus.

Too many times we get in a clique of people that believe and live out the kind of lifestyle we do, and if they say their Christian. We are too right? We are not convicted about anything. We've become complacent.

When Jesus said sin no more, he meant everything. Not just the things that the world doesn't accept.

The world doesn't agree with murder, just like Jesus. But the world tells us to sleep around until we find the man we want, and Jesus says no. But we turn our heads to this because it's accepted.

WHY?

if we are born again sold out believers in the gospel of Jesus Christ what in the world would make you want to live in a lifestyle of sin??

And if we profess to be these kind of believers, why are there divorces, babies out of wedlock, affairs, homeless people, drunks, addicts, liars, thieves, gossipers?????

WE CANNOT PICK AND CHOSE THE PIECES OF THE BIBLE THAT APPLY TO OUR LIFE AND MAKE US FEEL GOOD.

WE CANNOT WALK IN A WAY THAT WOULD LEAD SOMEONE ELSE TO A PATH STRAIGHT TO HELL.

THIS ISN'T ONE OF THOSE SITUATIONS WHERE WE CAN FAKE IT TIL WE MAKE IT.

Revelation 3
So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

1 John 1
But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Growing up, I talked the talk but never walked the walk. One day I will have to account to my Savior for all the people that looked at my lifestyle and turned from the church because I was a hypocrite.

I deserve nothing but Hell.
Yet, I have been given a clean slate.

What are you doing with yours?